sometimes when i cant sleep i come up with an illogical hypothesis for everything, giving it a reason and understanding in my head. like how time can be measured by a piece of string and how the knots i tie in the string represent a significant existence. then i see what two knots on the string are closest together and use that to judge compatibility between people. if they're touching, they're soul-mates.

sometimes i spend hours with that piece of string, calling out my name, then yours, seeing how close we fall together. blaming myself if we fall far apart. "it was my fault, i tugged too hard. here, lets try again..."

sometimes i walk up my driveway and lie in the spot where your car use to be parked and think about its pressure on my chest.